I don't care for a stupid title.

I can't do it. I won't hurt you.


If it breaks my heart, I will let it break my heart. I want you to be happy. I love you. If you feel this will make you happy, then I won't do anything.

I was blinded by my feelings for you. I misread what you were trying to tell me. And for that, I am truly sorry.

I don't think I can be a good friend to you for awhile. I hope you understand. I love you, but talking to you hurts, anything that deals with you hurts. And I hope you someday forgive me for abandoning you.

Something I can never tell you face to face, because I want you to be happy.

I think your being stupid. I think your making the worst mistake in your life. I think that you need to think with your head, and not with your fucking vagina, you stupid-ARGH.


You got HURT over this in the past, and your DOING IT AGAIN. WHY?! SO YOU HAVE SOME PHYSICAL GRATIFICATION?!


Yes, I've never experienced it, so I don't know how hard it is not to have sex on a regular basis. Yes, I don't know how much you miss it sometimes. Yes I want you to be happy. But I know how hurt you were last time when you were in that relationship. I had to be your shoulder to cry on. I hope to God that your not gonna cry on my shoulder again, because I don't want to talk to you at this point, and I really don't care if your hurting.


You also said you needed this, that its not just about the sex this time. Well I'm sorry to say this is exactly for the sex. If he truly cared for you, WHY does he want to discuss sex before you make it official?


I want you to be happy. I want to be your friend when your happy. I want you to go into...Whatever the fuck you want to call that stupid thing with that guy is, with a light heart, knowing that I'm not disappointed in you. I want you to be FUCKING HAPPY, AND NOT FUCKING HURT ME ANYMORE. I am SOOO mad with the decision you've made. I do not understand WHY you would still do this to yourself. So yeah.


I want to be a good friend by letting you chase your happiness. I also am being the worst friend in the world, because I can't tell you that I'm so unhappy with what you've done. But so be it. What's done is done.


I won't be surprised if the guy hurt you again. If you get hurt again. I'll do what you want me to. I'll be your shoulder to cry on. I'll be the pillar of support that you need to rest upon. I will be your best friend.


And in return, I will sacrifice whats left of my heart. I'm not gonna feel anymore. I don't want to connect to anyone. I don't want to be hurt anymore on the off chance that I will get a happy ending. Those won't happen. You've proven that to me. So I want you to be happy. Live your life to the fullest, and don't look back. So long as you don't suffer, life is good, right?


Not me. I'm done with chasing my happiness. I'm done with wearing my heart on a sleeve. I'm done with getting my heart broken time after time. I'm done. Thank you so much for helping me realize this. Thank you so much for deciding that getting some sexual gratification is better than your fucking sanity.

Thank you, FOR ASKING ME IF I WAS ALRIGHT WITH IT. BECAUSE YOU WOULDN'T FUCK THE DUDE WITHOUT MY APPROVAL. THANK YOU FOR NOT WANTING TO DISAPPOINT ME. BECAUSE THATS GONNA HELP ME SAY WHAT I WANT TO SAY.