New Years Resolution.

My New Years Resolution is to destroy the person I once was. To destroy the person who is stupid enough to fall in love with you.

People tell me they cannot wait for me to show the world how much I shine. Well I'm sorry to say that the battery for that flashlight is gone. And the flashlight is going to be destroyed next year. Its going to be replaced by something that I swore I would never become.

Because The AGONY of being the person I am right now isn't worth being your friend.

I will lose the people close to me, but in the end, it won't matter, because I will never be hurt again. I don't want to lose you, but everything I do reminds me of you. And the hatred I have for the world grows each day as a result of this.

Ever since our talk, Every girl I meet I want to stab in the face with a soldering iron, And then twist. I call them whores. I hate them. And none of them deserve that. None of them. And for me to find any peace, I have to do this.

Don't worry though, because you never do. I'll be your friend. Just talk to me, and I'll be glad to be there.

God damn it.

You don't know how much I hate myself right now. The one time I feel the necessity for me to actually be selfish, I abandon you, and you get hurt.

It won't happen again. If it means sacrificing my mental health, I will be there for you until you ask me not to be.

You may not think that It is my fault, but it is. It will always be my fault.