I'm Sorry.

I don't know why I'm saying this to you, but I'm sorry. I really can't handle the silent treatment well, and I can't take it anymore.

I don't know what I did, And I probably will never know. And maybe that's whats so saddening about this entire ordeal. I can't even make up for it, and I don't think I ever will.

I'll do what I can do. I'll try living day by day without thinking about you. If I survive even after 3 days, I will be amazed, because right now, the pain I feel right now is practically unbareable.

Maybe someday I get over you. Maybe someday won't come. who knows?


So like, ya. I pretty much wrote this when I had my heart shattered again. I seriously gotta stop picking girls that can do that...

I just decided to post this now because right now, I feel like I'm alone (and in reality, I am.) And I decided to type it up.

I'll be adding more after this...


Yeah. So me being alone. It's really hard for me to open up to someone. Really hard. It's how I've dealt with a bunch of stuff in the past. And When I do let someone, it usually ends up in heartache.

So I cut myself off. This may be my last post. It doesn't really matter to me anymore though. It takes so much will power not to end it now, I always thought. But maybe its not. Maybe you don't need that much will power to keep living, but alot to just end it.