I can't handle it anymore...

I can't sleep. Knowing that your mad at me breaks my heart and won't let me rest.

When you sent me that first text, I was estatic, because this was the first contact from you for the longest time. However, the texts that followed, broke me.

Knowing you want to end your friendship with me, because of me kills me, and I don't want that to be.

I'll give you your space. I'll give you time. I'll give you everything within my power, just please, don't do this to me.

I know I was stupid. I know I went too far. Please don't do this.

I say sorry, because its the only way I know how to express how I feel. I know I over use the word, but know that I mean it, deep down, I mean it, and I'm not joking, and I can't stand it this silence between the two of us.

knowing this has been bothering you for days, making you rethink our entire relationship, makes me lost, and scared, and angry.

Not by the fact that I was stupid in screwing up my chance with you. Not even for you doing this to me. But the fact that you want me out of your life for good.

I don't know what to say anymore. I don't know what to think.

You make me realize how stupid I am, and how much I need to grow, I need to mature, and I need to really mean what I say.

I don't know what to say anymore. I don't what other people do when they want to forget someone. I'm new at this. Maybe thats why you don't want what I want between us.

I don't know what else to type. I can't even think straight. I'm typing this to see if I can tire myself out by getting it down on something.

Its not working. I still think of what I did. I'm...oh god, I'm just gonna stop right now. I'm just...