Wanting something doesn't make it real. I know what it means now. Because What I want the most, I can't have, even if its something small.
I can't be your friend anymore. I don't know when I can be your friend, but certainly not right now.
I tried. I really did. But I can't. Your in my thoughts, at least once every hour. When I come back to my apartment, I can barely breath, because all I can remember is you, and that it would never work.
I would love to be the one who makes you happy. It would make me the happiest person on earth. I wish I could be enough for you.
I want you to be happy, and I wish I could be be there to witness your happiness. But I can't do that when I have the thoughts in my head about you. The thoughts that make me ashamed to even think.
I've realized, how much I based my happiness on my relationships. Even if they aren't that intimate, just friendships. I need to find my happiness in something other than my relationship with you.
I can't be your friend anymore. I don't know when I can be your friend, but certainly not right now.
I tried. I really did. But I can't. Your in my thoughts, at least once every hour. When I come back to my apartment, I can barely breath, because all I can remember is you, and that it would never work.
I would love to be the one who makes you happy. It would make me the happiest person on earth. I wish I could be enough for you.
I want you to be happy, and I wish I could be be there to witness your happiness. But I can't do that when I have the thoughts in my head about you. The thoughts that make me ashamed to even think.
I've realized, how much I based my happiness on my relationships. Even if they aren't that intimate, just friendships. I need to find my happiness in something other than my relationship with you.
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