Life...Sucks...I don't know why. I just feel that life is horrible, and I feel like ending it as soon as possible. It's like, my life has no meaning. I can't explain the feeling. Well, I sorta can. It feels...hopeless. I feel like whatever I try to attain, I shall fail. Like, no matter what you do, no matter how you try, you're always going to get the short end of the stick. I look back, and I miss so much stuff, and it hurts. But most of all, I hate the fact that I never took the chance to talk to someone who was important to me. Yes, a girl.
She made life bare able. Whenever I was with her, I felt hope. I felt that I could take on the entire world, and come out on top. With her, I felt freedom. I didn't have to look cool for her. I didn't care. I was just me. And she never looked down on me (well, sometimes, but only if i was being a really big jackass). The only thing I felt that I could talk to her about was how I felt about her. I regret it everyday now that I never see her, that I never took the chance with her, and that I never actually tried anything with her. I miss the freedom I had when I was with her. I miss how she gave me the everything I ever wanted, and never really asked for anything in return (not that I could ever do what she did).
I'm not afraid to say this, because it's true. I can actually say this about her, because, I swore to myself, not to lie to myself ever again. I loved her. I still do. I dream of her. It's the only thing I look forward to when I go to sleep. And at the slim chance that I MIGHT run into her is what gets me going in the morning. What gets me dressed, bathe. and all the other necessities, for the day.
I don't know. It's my first heart break, one of many to come. But I hope that someday, to you, the person who reads this post, and everyone out there, will meet the person who makes you feel this way, and I hope you're not stupid like me, and give up the chance to make it permanent.
So there. That's my random thought of the day, hour, w/e.
I'm gonna go meet my dream girl now. later y'all.
Ethan
Note:I wrote this about 3 months ago. I decided to post it, for my next topic.
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